Holler

The first two weeks were a piece of cake. She didn't start screaming until the third week.

And, having started, she has not stopped.

I have never felt so frustrated, or so ineffectual. What do you do when three hours later you have exhausted the list of potential "what's wrongs" as well as the list of anything that could possibly make it better. When a baby is not hungry, not wet, not too hot or cold. Has burped, been swaddled, been exposed to and deprived of every variable you can access. When a baby wakes from a nap screaming, spits out a nipple screaming, shakes her head violently and accuses you, screaming. Over and over again.

Hours go by, and the screaming, the "communication" you are supposedly hard wired to respond to is having the opposite of its intended effect. Hours later, the more she screams the less likely I am to want to do anything about it because why fucking bother. Nothing helps.

Friends who suffered colicky babies say it gets better with every month, a turning point at three months. That seems like an eternity.

I am so tired of this.